POP! goes my heart!

I said I wasn’t gonna lose my head, but then..

POP! Goes my heart.

I wasn’t gonna fall in love again, but then POP!

Goes my heart.

And I just can’t let you go, I can’t lose this feeling.

if they were really existed during my teenage yrs.. they wud be HOTTER than NKOTB! i just cant stop listening to it over and over again, even at work .. cant stop imagining all the move details in that movie .. Music & Lyrics.. fun funny ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqGBGDgVJeA

it was fun .. i thot it was just one of easy Hugh Grant Movies but the tunes are absolutely sweet and fun .. and i cudnt believe it that He can actually sing, obviously shaking his hips all the time .. its funny, cute .. tickles me to death! hahahaha .. and amazingly nice bod even reaching the age of 50 yeah one gets to see him topless in this .. hmm unless if it is his double .. and i like the way he says Thank You .. esp when barrymore lets him go to perfom on the stage .. no matter how hasty the moment is .. he says that in style ..

nothing much to say abt Barrymore .. shes being herself .. yeah ..

great songs .. like Way Back into Love, Don't Write Me Off .. and the lil hottie Haley Bennet .. well shes honestly.. if u ask me .. the boys will be drooling all over watching her singing n dancing innocently and sizzling .. at least i know my bros wud be definitely be so .. try to grab the 2 clips of Buddha's Delight .. very karmic indeed hahaha.. even i was like .. woo!

very entertaining monday evening i had .. yesterday of course..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qAM2zRE3GI - cool!

Black (carbon) Chicken Lunch!

this weekends was one of the those when i had the feeling its a waste to kill it with sleeping at nite. so i was up the whole nite, online until 5am, had my (can i call it breakfast?) at 530am the left over chilli crab i cooked during the day and waited for early subuh prayer bfor i crashed myself into my sanctuary ..

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woke up almost noon by a phone call .. ahhh .. the blackie meow bro .. "eh when r u sending the crab?" mumbling fumbling me, he knew i just got up .. followed by his nagging "anak dara shudnt bangun lambat blah blah blah .. " .. duh.. so i replied .." coming right away!" .. thinking of travelling from pandan to ttdi ... pergh ! i felt calling him back and asked him to come & get them here himself!.. anyway sayang adik punya pasal i dragged the towel to the bathroom and had the necessary splash and dressed up!

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arrived at his place 1.45pm.. "yummy!" as he opened the container and invited me to stay for lunch.. hmm kinda hesitated but i had no other place to go than home .. oh well what the heck .. so first time ever in my life, i had the lunch with 4 guys in their house

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checked the kitchen, peeked whats in the wok.. "r those chicken? why so black???" ...he looked annyed and said "hello sista! these are honey chickens!" .. i thot the honey shud be in golden colour? anyway they had their way with all the tung-tang sounds in their surprisingly neat kitchen while i read the The Star & FHM in the living with one of them playing the PS2.. sneaking around the magazines shelves .. hmmm i wonder where they keep the xxx rated materials .. hahaha

its almost 3 that we finally had it.. the "black madu" chicken, crispy tempe slices, chicken soup and the chilli cabbage.. even tho simple it was good .. the most handsome housemate is a nice guy .. kept on checking what i wanted, needed and very friendly.. ahh he wud make a good bf one day.. lol

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anyway .. went home in drizzling .. it seems a routine now, the raining is on sunday but not during the weekday.. a sun-day is not always the sunday.. and it isnt bad at all..

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have a good week days .. and thank god monday is only once a week!

the choc and the lolli ..

A chocolate said to a lollipop:
you are damn sweet.

And the lollipop said:
Not as sweet as the person reading this!
Ur smile makes me flat...
ur talks make me glad..
Ur company makes me mad...
But ur absence makes me sad..

then the chocolate replied the lollipop:
i know i m sweet if not sweeter....
the one readin dis is not bitter but bitterly sweeter
thinkin of her makes me higher
chattin with her gets me mushier
the longer i do this i might get crazier
to be in her company...might get wettier (hahaha)
missing her much does not make me happier
melting her i might get hugsierNkissier
and it suxs bein lonelier

the lollipop in return said:
not bitter but bitterly sweet is stil bitter
but bitter + sweet aint bad either (eh)?
somethig to crave about, one can be an addicter
too sweet cud be unforgetble but bitter does linger
fickle and tickle make the bz life sounds better
melting and being melted only when we r together
will there be such day? i wonder
just enjoying the moment until we decide that later
but hmmm something shud be done bfor we both get crazier ..hahaha



i think most ppl familiar with the first 2 verses.. its such a sweet say but however, the remaining 2 were something that i shared w someone special: sort of balas pantun .. he was the choc i was the lolli hahaha .. but yeah i have come to love that sweet special soul even tho we dont stay in it anymore now.. always makes me smile everytime i read it .. and im sharin it here with the hope it brights up ur day ..

Bale'ing

i had a short get-away .. Bali revisited .. but i was Bale' refreshed! .. a place which now im trying to describe in words .. if i cud ..

so i was there on the island .. for hotels or resort hunting.. which was "interrupted" by some series of lil shopping along the way.. first day on friday.. we went to the furthest long 3 hours drive to Ubud the hi-land of bali cosy drizzling noon.. went to some pockets villas.. and its the shopping world for abstract art lovers.. some tailing shopping of paintings, crafted stuff .. which later ended with some refreshing moments at Biyukukung.. excellent .. that i fell asleep while receiving some treatment in the sound of drizzling on the rooftop, the green view of sunset reflecting its orange rays to the spread of green paddyfield .. which after we went straight back to Kuta after visiting some in-between-space resorts at nite .. and a nice dinner .. the nite in Legian n Kuta was not much differ than those we have in Bkt Bintang, only that the roads r very narrow, full of drunkard shows, the stronger smell of beer along the way and traffic jam which was (of course) caused by taxis ..

second day.. went down south the first target was the adjacent Seminyak.. unbelievable The 151..hi-tech villas for only usd600k! (30 yrs leasehold tho) ,then straight to Nusa Dua, heaven for golfers ..saw The Ayodhya and its fierce celebrating entrance of dragons and mystique figures which used to be The Hilton a year ago.. then the calm Amanusa .. this one is worth to be described thru pics .. floating floating bowls in the ponds and yeah great bungee jumping spot at the end of the road..then The Nusa Dua.. the old and one of the pioneers since 1980s.. how it has aged and very monestic still very excellent ..and the orgasmic part was the 5yr old Bale' .. a place that gave me the goosebumps all the way walking around..

we just passed by and stopped and we we greeted by a spanish guy w long hair.. never we thot he is one of the co-founder of the exquisite heaven on earth.. its a place worth staying with ur only loved one .. definitely .. surprises surprises .. beyond words .. he led us from the entrance to the villa unit .. erk! i cud die .. oh mama mia! the shocking part was it was designed by an early 30-ish humble local grad architect.. so the founder said this was the only place he only managed to put on his idea after he tried in europe.. in bali everything is possible and flexible .. a walk to heaven, to the light, to the delight moments of the living life .. we arrived as it was about to sunset.. and i watched how the place transformed from bright reflection of sandstone due to natural daylight to the moment when its reflected back by the warm hidden lights of the electricity.. it won the best boutique hotel in indonesia (130staff vs 29 units) and the second in the world last yr .. hey its usd600k a nite! cheap?? hmm i cud more pics for u guys to see it ..
later the dinner was at Jimbaran the candle lite cheap yummy seafood heaven by the sea with a cute Tofa (the waiter) attending us.. in the sound of the wave thrashing the shore, the straight series of lights of the plane runaway, the clear sight of the stars above.. with the mind and heart wished i was with him.. the one i missed very much ..

third day was a sneak peek at The Popies at Popies 1.. nice sneaky hotel..didnt shop much tho.. when ur away u just thot of those at home and wondered what shud u get them .. that the kind of shopping i did .. for myself .. a lil one or 2 of that .. mostly just browsing n planning in the head what shud i purchase in next visit .. (woohoo!)..

this one was a worth trip and it was perfect .. well almost if only that we didnt lost our way to the hotel the nite we arrived for 3 hours (plus some arguments n yelling) and only had maggi for the dinner, lost of rm100 to the money changer (damn! killed my mood to shop!), kinda lost our ways to some districts too, some more arguments, out of 4 travellers only 2 managed to go home that nite and how actually caused the delay of our plane by 30mins, how we had to identify ourselves when all passengers were seated and were approached by the captain to tell us what was happening, how my friend n i had to bring home the baggages of those 2 mid lastnite.. yeah
but all those was nothing compared to the dream i had .. the moment how i was visited by the "light" .. that i opened my eyes and saw it ..wishing to take something from me which i begged for another chance of repentance .. and i did feel that feeling .. emotionally n physically how it was pulled out and brought back to me .. a reality check .. a double check what it means .. its freakin me out ..

gasping for some air ..

a lil kitten mewing .. thats the sound of the kitten across my block.. it has been yelling for days .. the first time i heard it when i was a about to sleep in a drizzling nite .. i just cudnt sleep ..no not bcos of the noise but the thot it was calling for help,, the thot of it trying to climb up the drain to the surface.. i thot i cud sleep it off pretend it was nothing .. until a while i put on my sweater and pants and got myself a torchlight and went down at an hour passed midnite .. not forgetting the umbrella .. but as i went down .. the mewing stopped .. i went around the perimeter of the residential block checking the drain .. but all i heard was the gushing sound of the drain water.. funny .. so went up to my unit and back to sleep..

the next morning i heard it again .. wondered .. but after few days i told myself it must be kept by one of the tenants.. cud be in a cage ..

it was the last weekend that i found where its exact location.. theres another block about 8m apart from my window .. huh! there it is! in a cage !from our "binocular" its a brown siamese cud be abt 4 months old at a balcony .. i think its lonely or terrified of the raining every now and then.. hmm kesian .. most of the time the sliding door of that house is closed .. have they gone for a vacation? poor lil thing .. my sis said it sounds more like a police car siren .. true .. eeee-yeowww thats close hahaha.. gasping for some air .. wish we cud reach it ..

gasping for some air .. hmm hard to breathe nowdays .. difficult.. its easier not to inhale anything .. expanding the ribcage its pretty tough nowdays.. bcomes a burden .. hoping for some kindness which hasnt come around .. whens that?

maybe i dont live that long to have it .. hmm my sister and housemate went out for a movie .. thats what they sms-ed me.. my baby bro is urging for some sketch for him to do his calculations .. works hmm forking the energy out .. one at a time? .. its up to the point of extreme memory halt .. im becoming more rude esp to those who butt in to see me >> those marketing ppl .. sometimes i feel like yelling "leave me alone!" .. grrr

i had almost the same tough period about the same time last yr .. but i was happy.. fun.. i was loved .. i had someone to let out the feelings of love .. which i dont have anymore .. and time stands still, observing, cud be wondering what i wud do next .. to keep my sanity and sensibility or surrender to the astray life and swinging from one tree to another ..?? .. i think im wiser enuff (if not older enuff) to opt for something more meaningful than those later mentioned ..

dear god .. pls keep me in my faith .. amin ..

oggi the kitty

oggi and the cockcroaches .. yup fav cartoon! on sunday..

and the last weekends was spent at my parents.. 4 of us exlcuding the 1st bro n wife.. were on a mission, which included measuring, marking, planning, sketching on wall.. also plants watering.. at the site the whole satday morning on our renovation works .. and of course .. grands were excited joining in .. came in later in their lil suzuki vitara (cute couple).. with parang and sticks .. and water hose .. rite: one of my parents' retirement plans .. so if i were not included mom wud be heartbroken.. good thing that the item which i planned to look for during that weekends was found on thursday nite and after settling my affair on friday.. we started the journey downsouth in a car after maghrib ..

i was as well delighted being introduced to the new kitty .. 2 months old is Oggi .. temporarily in its cage with its mommy Didie, while we were at home .. if not it wud be surely loved to play under our cars .. and of course the engine.. very noisy .. but adorable, big grey eyes which later will change colour, long whiskers, long ears and spikey porcupine fur .. that spikes out all the time and loves to snuggle in the nook and cranny of our body warmth .. wanted to bring it to KL but of course was objected by my mom.. she loves it already, which means "no way!".. the pic was taken on the day my journey back to kl .. saying bye .. knowing im gonna miss him .. and he too will be missing me hehehe..

when am i gonna have one of my own? .. hmmm..

self-mooring in the howling gale ..

the morning .. wet wet-nurse day.. it was a slow n steady morning .. the heart bruised .. shud i go or shudnt i go to work? .. its been raining since last nite .. and yesteday was the day i had a thot if i shud seriously stay w him.. it was un-utterable bad day..

working with the fact i cudnt afford to be sick. if i were really on leave.. turn the phone into silence mode .. that still doesnt stop ppl from calling looking for me.. and if they cudnt get thru me today, they wud do next morning.. all in all taking leave is as good as doubling or tripling the workloads.. plus juggling the hands and as well the brain to do and think for 3 or 4 projects a day .. every answer i want shud be in a snap .. im at the point remembering the phone and fax numbers of all consultants n clients in my head, as i have no time to check and to look for it..

its pretty sux .. really it is .. and its worse when u wud have to go thru a relentless arguments n yelling .. esp when its on the phone .. and making it worst .. when the reception is bad .. and that was what i had w him yesterday..
i was pissed off.. i drew 1 line, i had a phone call to take, i drew the 2nd line.. i had to take the next call.. i just got my butt down to the chair.. someone knocked to see me .. and during all that, i received a call from him who was on the road .. apparently he had a fight with a fellow consultant .. 2 egos of 2 bosses colided .. the firey "excitement" of anger he felt was instantly poured down on me..

" u r trying to be a hero, r not u?!!!" .. damn .. he was not in good mood and so was i .. i wasnt trying to be a hero .. i was just pre-amp a foreseen trouble that has come bfor and finally we had to deal it on our end .. " i said dont do it , u DONT do it! i pay ur damn salary! not them! im not their f*** draftman!!!" .. and at that point .. i yelled back at him to stop yelling at me.. putting away the phone on the table.. i still cud hear his speech word by word .. until at one point i stopped arguing and asked for clarification of his intructions .. "how stupid can u be???" .. taht did it .. i felt this feeling overwhelming to fight him to the end .. until his finally said " fine!!" and of course slammed the phone down.. gathering my strength to face the downliners handing down the instructions.. i went into the surau n broke down .. the fact was 2 of the staffs heard of our arguement as they were having a discussion w me bfor he called..

he had never yelled at me like that bfor .. 2 days bfor he was yelling down at a motorist who ran over a red lite .. which at that time i was driving .. and hes intruction was to chase that guy so that he cud reach him n yell .. prior to that a series of honkings by him .. meddling with my navigation.. gosh .. how pressure cud do on ppl..

yesterday evening was ended with a short meeting i had outside .. which after looked for my lil sister to have a coco locco n dinner w me .. and while driving he called me back.. tried to mend things which i replied wherever applicable to the jobs .. went home beyond fatigue .. cudnt asnwer a thing what my housemate asked .. went to bed as early as 9pm after a splash dash ..

and today he treated us the lunch.. and said .. "i didnt mean anything to call u stupid" .. hmm i wonder what he meant when he said it .. sux period of living .. how bad cud it be? all in all as usual we r back to normal.. whatever arguments it has never taken more than 2 or 3 hours to calm down n start arguing again .. self mooring in the howling gale .. hmm

and my lil sister a.k.a toopid has been complaining that i live a simple life .. AM i really?